Love Me Just the Way That I Am

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Raw. That is the only word that adequately describes how I felt after the words and actions of another person raked my soul dry years ago. According to him I wasn’t enough. My clothes weren’t right. My hair too curly. I didn’t talk enough. I was too shy, didn’t show enough affection, too studious. Less than, less than, less than reverberated in my mind all of the time.

And maybe, just maybe, all of those things were absolutely true. But they were me.

I read a quote about marriage the other day. Something to the effect of you should marry a person for who they are, not who you want them to be. Sound advice.

I’ve changed over the years. My relationships have shaped and molded me. My husband and I have refined one another in positive ways. Even my children have changed me for the better. God has worked on my heart and continues to do so.

My clothing style has improved (hallelujah) and sometimes I straighten my hair for fun. I can engage in conversations with greater ease, show more physical love than I did once upon a time, and while I’m still studious, I’ve learned how to not let it consume me.

I am more. More than my weaknesses, more than my failures, and more than my insecurities. More than the expectations of those around me, more than my perception of who I should be, and more than the quality of my physical appearance.

2 Corinthians 12:9, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”

Cleaning out my work bag today, I found a slip of paper with Lovely by Sara Haze written on it. I looked the title up on my good friend Google, not remembering why I wrote it down. You may have heard the song. I first heard it on Pandora. This song could have been my anthem. Unfortunately, there isn’t an official music video I could find on the internet, but here’s a YouTube link where you can listen to the song if you haven’t heard it. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fyfMZSaw0i0

“Lovely”

I don’t wanna be her
I just want to be little old me
Shouldn’t have to think
Who am I suppose to be today
And what give you the right
To tell me who I should be
Who gave you that right

Cause I, I feel lovely
Just the way that I am
Yes I feel lovely
The way that I am

I know you want the best
Yeah only good things for me
But you have to realize
I can’t be all these things you project on me
Cause I’m beautiful to me
Doesn’t that mean a thing
I feel lovely
Just the way that I am
Yes I feel lovely
The way that I am

I need that to be enough for you
Need that to be enough for you
Cause it’s enough for me
It’s enough for me

Am I suppose to give up everything I am
Just to make you happy
I thought I was the one you
Always wanted me to be
It turns out I’m just little old me
I’m just little old me
And that’s fine by me

Cause I, I am lovely
Just the way that I am
Oh yes I am,
Yes I am lovely
The way that I am
I am lovely lovely
I am lovely

Memorize this one and sing it in the shower at the top of your lungs. And if you don’t feel lovely, maybe if you sing it enough you’ll start to believe it. Because you, my friend, are a masterpiece! More, and not less.

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One thought on “Love Me Just the Way That I Am

  1. “I am more. More than my weaknesses, more than my failures, and more than my insecurities. More than the expectations of those around me, more than my perception of who I should be, and more than the quality of my physical appearance” So powerful and true!! Thank you for sharing this.

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